It did get me thinking though. The woman we talked with was vocal about her perspectives
and her desire to just be a good person and preserve the world for the next generation.
She knew some things about the Bible and had a faith in things such as the sun
and moon, or balancing her heart and mind through Yoga. She still asked questions though and I enjoyed the open conversation about what we believe. Most people shy away from asking these types of questions. Her perception of Christians was
that most of our actions do not match what we say we believe.
I’ve never been good at being a Christian in the sense of
doing everything perfect. I thank God
that me trying to be perfect is not the gospel.
I think of what Paul wrote in 1 Corinthians 15.
Now I would remind you, brothers, of
the gospel I preached to you, which you received, in which you stand, 2 and
by which you are being saved, if you hold fast to the word I preached to
you—unless you believed in vain.
3 For
I delivered to you as of first importance what I also received: that Christ
died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures, 4 that he
was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the
Scriptures, 5 and that he appeared to Cephas, then to the
twelve. 6 Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers
at one time, most of whom are still alive, though some have fallen asleep. 7 Then
he appeared to James, then to all the apostles. 8 Last of all,
as to one untimely born, he appeared also to me. 9 For I am the
least of the apostles, unworthy to be called an apostle, because I persecuted
the church of God. 10 But by the grace of God I am what I am,
and his grace toward me was not in vain. On the contrary, I worked harder than
any of them, though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me. 11 Whether
then it was I or they, so we preach and so you believed.
Paul was raised in religion.
He persecuted the church of God while thinking he was carrying out God’s
will. He expresses feeling the least and unworthy of being called an apostle. But he also expresses a deep understanding of
grace and his ministry and actions that flow out of that grace.
I have thought a lot about grace lately and how continual it
is in my life. I’ve been through many
life phases if you will. I’ve had the home schooled insecure nerdy childhood,
the punk rock band days, the late-night college life with part-time jobs, the
reckless party years, the years where you feel like you are living in an
episode of “Friends,” the adult full-time work and full-time school years, and
the intense career years. When I look
back at everything God has done with my life I can’t help but be grateful for
the grace he has repeatedly given me in each phase of life. There is a peace in knowing that wherever I
have been or will be in life God’s grace remains. Maybe
He’ll keep me where I’m at, or maybe I’ll give up my career and raise a family
someday. His plans have always ended
better than mine even when I don’t think they are.
I have been continually thinking on John 1:16 this past week:
16 For from his fullness we
have all received, grace upon grace.
I can’t help but think of "grace upon grace" as a continually
rolling ocean of the grace that God has given me daily in life.
I am thankful that from Christ’s fullness I have received
grace upon grace and like Paul by the grace of God I am what I am.
Today I am thankful that I do not have to be good at being a
Christian.