An Honest Prayer

Lord, give me courage.  You go before me and love me even when my testimony turns into the despair of wine and chocolate cookies.  How could I desire anything but You?  Yet here I fall.  Here You hold me.  Here You know me like none other. 

Lord, have mercy, when I only see myself and only see You behind me instead of in front of me.  I try to see You, yet the issue remains in the two words of “I try.”  I have longed for things outside of You and what You have built for me.

I pray I would cherish in my heart everything You have done in my life.  You are Lord even in my heart's turmoil.  When my heart feels crushed You still give me breath.  You overwrite my flaws in Your grace.  Replace my desires with Yours as You continue to remove the eclipse of myself before You to no longer block Your light with myself.


  Psalm 121:3 "He will not let your foot be moved; he who keeps you will not slumber."

Photo Cred:  Becky Charlick, August 2017 Eclipse Salem, OR